Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream, Cream Soda and Growing Up

I have sat down to write this blog for a week now. Nothing has seemed to come out, i even erased a couple of them because they were to brutally honest. But here it goes.

I really don’t know what I want to write on at this moment, I know that i want to get in my car and drive, maybe home, but most likely just go and not look back.

I love liberty, don’t get me wrong. This is not to run from things that I don’t like here, but i do feel like getting away. In fact I think sometimes we all need to get away at points. I have been here for almost 3 months this semester. Honestly it has started to drive me crazy

Have you ever had that feeling that you are meant for greatness? I have that feeling all the time, then something happens and I end up screwing up. Maybe one time I won’t screw up and actually do what I am meant to be doing.

One of my friends was talking to me last night and said something that stuck with me. Welcome to growing up. Honestly growing up sucks. It could be the hardest thing i have ever done, I always joke that I will do such and such when I grow up. I don’t want to grow up ever. In fact i would rather stay a kid at heart then have to be thrown into a grown up world. Growing up really does suck, but i feel as though by growing up i am doing what i am meant to be doing. It sounds weird but i feel as though God is pointing me towards huge things, and yet every time i think it all is how it should be, i get a curverball.

Another one of my friends and I have had this grand plan of planting a church since we were in like 11th grade. He txtd me the other day and said, “Hey i think we should plant a church in South Africa”. Little did he know that i wanted to be a missionary there. So i felt that was a huge God thing. Now i have no idea where God wants me to go. I just know that I am supposed to be where i am for a reason, and yet i sit and think about it and wonder what that reason is.

So honestly this blog has been everywhere and back again.

All this to say i have no idea where I am supposed to be anymore. I have been thrown to many curveballs over the past couple of days and seen God open and close doors. I wish God could just be like ‘Hey andrew this is what i want you doing so go do it’. I guess thats the whole point of growing up though. God knows what we are supposed to be doing, but gives us the option to do other things. He lets us fail and mess up.

I have messed up a lot

I guess this time i will just have to trust and say I know that God has this in His plan.

So here it is

I am growing up.

-Andrew